[S1E4] Don't Ever Tell Anybody Anything
Rae realises she has started to develop feelings for Finn and contemplates telling him. She also decides she wants to tell everyone about her stay in hospital, but Chloe talks her out of it. She begins to worry that Finn will never see her as more than just a friend, prompting a friend from the hospital, Danny Two Hats, to give her some advice about how to get out of the "friend zone". He tells her to treat Finn coldly and remain distant; she does so, which confuses and upsets Finn. Rae's mum announces that she and Karim (her boyfriend) have to go to Tunisia for a few days to stop the United Kingdom Immigration service discovering him and tells Rae she is not allowed to have any parties. She invites the gang over for a sleep over. She leaves them in her house while she goes to her therapy session. Kester encourages Rae to open up about what triggered her self-harm, but she refuses when Kester won't tell her anything about his life. Rae heads home to discover that the sleep over has turned into a massive party. She is angry when she sees Danny Two Hats is there too, telling everyone he used to date Rae, in an effort to help Rae make Finn jealous. In a game of 'Spin the Bottle' Finn and Rae end up in a closet together, where he confronts her about her distant behaviour. Later, Rae finds him distraught over the death of his grandmother, and the two connect emotionally before falling asleep together. The next day Chloe confesses to Rae that she has a crush on Finn, and Rae's mum returns from her trip to Tunisia announcing she has married Karim so he could stay in the country.
[S1E4] Don't Ever Tell Anybody Anything
Rae realises she's started to fall for Finn and contemplates telling him how she feels - she's sick of lying, and telling Chloe about her illness was a relief, so perhaps she needs to start being honest with everyone.
When Rae makes a shocking and upsetting family discovery she seeks revenge on her mum - and invites Chop and the gang around. Meanwhile in her regular therapy session, Kester encourages Rae to open up about what triggered her self-harm, but when Kester won't tell her anything about his life she refuses. She thinks he's just like her mum - full of lies and hypocrisy.
Rae heads home to discover that Chop's idea of a sleep-over has now turned into a massive party. She freaks out when she sees Danny is there too, telling everyone he used to date Rae, in an effort to help Rae make Finn jealous but which doesn't really have the desired effect.
Jules: No. No. [Jules starts to walk off.]Nate: I'm not trying to hurt you. I'm not. I'm not here to hurt you. I know that you have these ideas about me based on the first time that we met, and I understand that. But I'm not the person that you met that night. Jules: Can you let go of me?[Jules walks towards the water. Nate follows.]Nate: You know, over the past few weeks, I've spent every moment of every day getting to know you. At night, I fall asleep to you, and in the morning, I wake up to you. I kind of feel closer to you than I do anyone in the world. Jules: I don't trust you, Nate. Nate: I don't trust you, either. [Nate moves closer and puts his hand on Jules's face. He kisses her.]Nate: Open your mouth. Wider. [Nate tries to pry her mouth open.]Jules: Nate. Nate. Stop. Cal: God, are you broken inside? And that's precisely why I don't trust you. Because you're so broken, you don't even trust yourself and that's scary. Not just for you, but for me, and my entire family. I wouldn't answer that, you're going to want to hear this. Over the last three weeks, you've knowingly produced and distributed child pornography, including obscene images that were taken on school property. I've compiled all these photos, along with an IP address, and an account that's linked to your name. I don't know if you're familiar with child pornography laws in this state, but they apply to minors just as they apply to adults. Jules: I sent them to you. Nate: No, you sent them to an account of a person that doesn't fucking exist. And I mean anyone can report child pornography, right?Jules: Then I can tell them everything. Nate: Okay, you do that, but here's what will definitely happen. You end up on a sex offenders list. That means no more college, it's going to be very fucking difficult to find a job, and everywhere you go, for the rest of your life, you'll be harassed and spat at, and treated like a fucking animal. You deserve better than that because I know you. You're kind, you're smart, you're generous. You got a big heart and you deserve whatever the fuck it is in this world that you want. So keep your head down and keep your mouth shut. Don't try to ruin my life, and I won't have to ruin yours. Jules: You know what I think? I think you're a fucking faggot, just like your daddy. [Nate grabs Jules by the hair.]Nate: You have a nice night.
Cal: Hey. Look, I know you have the power to ruin my life right now. I'm begging you, pleading with you, please don't. I know you already told your friend. I saw her look at me. Jules: She won't tell anyone, I promise. Cal: 'Cause if this ever came out, I'd lose everything. I'll do whatever you want me to do. Jules: I have no intention of, like, hurting you or anything. I'm sorry about earlier. That was kind of dumb. Cal: That's okay. I just wanted to...Jules: It won't be a thing, don't worry. Cal: Thank you, thank you so much.
Meanwhile, investigators entertained ever greater longshots. They issued police sketches of strange and suspicious men, some vague enough to have been drawings of anybody. They enlisted the public's help in finding red cars and white cars and tan vans, cars seen moving suspiciously slowly or suspiciously quickly. They even conducted a search in Iowa based on a lead from a psychic.
Two weeks after Jacob Wetterling was abducted in St. Joseph in October 1989, an older man walked into the very Tom Thumb store where the 11-year-old had rented a video the night he went missing. The man acted strangely, said a clerk, as he purchased chicken noodle soup and saltine crackers. He talked about Jacob and said with a chuckle, "I don't think they're ever going to find that boy." The clerk didn't get the man's license plate number, but she worked with police to create a composite sketch of his face.
Malcolm: Did my mother know you were a serial killer before your arrest?Martin: Ohh. That's a big accusation, and it presents a bit of a conundrum. If I say yes, you won't believe me. If I say no, you'll be relieved, but still a part of you will remember that I have been accused of being a pathological liar. You tell me, what answer do you want to hear?Malcolm: The truth!Martin: The truth. That takes time, and it cant be shouted through protective glass. You and your mother need to resolve your issues first. I don't want to get in the middle of that.
Nevertheless, it's hard to shake the feeling that Jessica knew something more. Why was her response to young Malcolm, "you don't know what your father is capable of" when she caught him trying to open the box?
Soong-Chan Rah: Yeah. Those are the conversations that were fun to have too. That was, maybe, the most exciting dynamic part of the church that I pastored, which was to see the students who had, in some sense, everything going for them. They had every opportunity. They had every privilege. They had every advantage in life as attendees of these schools, yet, finding their spirituality not only in their intellectual knowledge but in the young child who was having trouble in school and the family that was struggling because of financial grains when a teenager in a neighborhood got involved in gangs and when there was a drive-by shooting in their neighborhood that needed pastoral care. Those were the challenges that I really like seeing our students who were in college engaged with the community in a very deep way.
Soong-Chan Rah: Yeah. I think that's very critical to formation for ministry. For example, I probably had about 30 interns during my years as a pastor. I've obviously seen hundreds of hundreds of seminary students over the last decade or so. I don't think I ever said to any of them, "You don't know what you're doing." I don't ever remember saying, "You need a little more knowledge in this area." Or "You need to get your increase in awareness of intellectual awareness." I don't ever remember chastise to someone for not having enough knowledge. I do remember wondering that this man or woman have the right heart. It's not that you don't have the head for it. I want to make sure that your heart is in the right place.
Soong-Chan Rah: I think ministries should be a combination. It should be an intellectual and well-thought out reason and rationale approach to serving others, but I certainly hope the heart is never lost in that. That was actually one of the joys for me in ministry, seeing these extraordinary bright people get a heart for ministry to actually not just intellectualize the ministry that they were doing and the work that they were doing, but to really feel a heart of compassion for those who are certain.
Soong-Chan Rah: I'm thrilled that she's going to be pursuing intellectual knowledge and all the good things that college should be, but I also want her heart to grow. Heart for whether she's a pastor or not. I want her heart for other people and heart for God's work and God's kingdom to grow. I think I look back and the years that I worked in working with campus ministry in college students and still working in an academic setting, I know that these years in college, for whatever reason, 18 to 22 is one of the most formative years in a person's life. I look back many, many years later, many decades later, and I look back in my college years and say, "So much of what I believe in, my value system, my heart's desires, my longing for God's Kingdom," a lot of that was formed in college during those four years. 041b061a72